I worked all evening on rearranging a Tom Waits song into a tango. Kinda hard to do that crap with only a guitar. I surprised myself.
It makes me wish I still had a piano. My mother sold it for $600 when she moved to California in the early 80s--losing that piano just killed me, therefore I wanted to kill her--probably best she left town for awhile. The last song I played on it was Bob Seger's "We've Got Tonight," (the piano movers stood there until I finished) then it got carried out the door immediately thereafter. Meh.
As for my drug intake, I have totally weaned off the steroids. Pain has returned in full force, so obviously the steroids were keeping it in check. My body feels like I've been in a knock-down-drag-out fight, or in a 20 round boxing match. The problem is, I can't maintain that high of a steroid dose for long - it does terrible things to me. I called the pain doc today, and he increased the Gabapentin to 1200mg/day. It's the only choice I have besides advil and aspirin, so I'm taking it. I can't get a real GD pain pill to save my life. I will have to pay close attention and watch for any weird neuro symptoms.
In the meantime, I'll play my guitar. I'm treating it like a job - playing until my hands stop working, then resting and playing some more. My memory is total CRAP. I have to read what I play, since I can't remember a damned thing. It's excellent that a skillion leadsheets are available online for free. You can find just about any song you want without too much difficulty. Playing also keeps me occupied so I don't get stuck in the "perpetual worry loop," which I actually fear.
I live for the day when I can stop hurting and stop worrying. Hopefully this guitar and my own brand of music therapy can help me do that.
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