Bad News :(

Back from the heart doc this morning - he thinks I have another blockage.  I am a bundle of raw nerves and my head has reached critical mass. 

I am scheduled for all the same tests I had at the beginning.  Another torturous echo cardiogram for my screamy boobs, more thallium, etc.

I am kind of wondering what the point of having a new round of tests is, since I will refuse any further surgery at this point.   I am certainly not keen on a second round of heart torture - it has only been 3 months since the first time.  I am nowhere near healed from the first surgery, and I don't think my brain can take another round on the pump so soon.  I still have lots of "Pump Head" symptoms that have not improved at all.  Maybe they can do something with drugs this time. I feel devastated. 

Note to self: seek out nearest neighborhood porch asap as future hideout.

I finally have an appointment with the pain specialist. The heart guy says he will probably want to do a nerve block. The pain appointment is the day after I get thallium. ::twitch::  Maybe he can do a nerve block that starts at the top of my head and ends just under my knees.

Today is the first time ever the heart doc did not say to me, "You're going to be ok!"